Trying to find a 'Status Quo' ..

is like trying to eat your own toe nails in the dark.

Happiness is elusive, but sadness is always right behind me .. following my footsteps.

I recommend trying NOT to find Love. The Love I once had was taken away by the same girl that acted .. pretended .. to give it to me, though she left it close enough to remind me of what I no longer have. More than 6ix months ago, when she pulled the plug, still feels like yesterday.

It's a scar .. sure, it no longer feels the same and the pain is mostly gone but .. everyday you see the scar you are reminded of where, and how, and who, gave it to you. I'll never be free .. will I? I think I will be perpetually ..

Locked In Chains.

It's life Jim ..

but not as we know it.

Why ..

is it so that when we're told 'I want you', they automatically move into 'Facebook Mode' and ignore you?

Wait .. don't answer that. It was a question.

I am un

happy.

My heart is reasonably well mended, my mind seems to be kicking on all four, I'm no longer distracted by memories, and I'm no longer engaged in conversations (or comments) ..

Still .. the unhappiness that follows me around seems to insist that I tattoo it on my ass, so when I sit down I'm sitting with it .. or on it.

Haha .. now THAT makes me smile :)